"the second miracle was the time spent with you" | ASPECTS GAME

[miraculess]

Warnings for violence, self harm, and suicide attempts and ideation.

(Also for overblown symbolism and the fact I am almost entirely winging this ;D)

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[ofobedience]

[another sliver of hesitation, but then he's pushing it back and dropping down into the shallow water, wading over to the sodden lump to better investigate]

are you...?

[reaching out his hand to touch a sodden shoulder with just the tips of his fingers]

[miraculess]

[ she doesn't respond to the touch at all ]

...'m fine.

[ofobedience]

[well that's...]

Lilith??

[miraculess]

[ turns her head just enough to glance at him, thoroughly dead-eyed ]

[ofobedience]

[annnnd it's a look that cuts into him down to the bone]

Are you...?

[all right, he means. but it seems a redundant question]

[miraculess]

I'm fine.

[ a little more coherent this time, but it's the same dull tone of voice.

really, underneath the exhaustion, she sounds... disappointed. ]

[ofobedience]

[he frowns, crouches down to be closer to her despite the dead eyes and dull voice]

But something's wrong...and...you're in the water.

[miraculess]

[ vague noise of agreement, or at least acknowledgement ]

...it didn't work.

[ofobedience]

What didn't work?

[asked quietly, with some trepidation]

[miraculess]

Drowning...

[ofobedience]

[Lilith :(]

I'm glad it didn't, then. I don't want you to drown.

[miraculess]

You want me to keep suffering...?

[ofobedience]

No. That's not what I meant...

[miraculess]

There isn't anything else.

[ofobedience]

But there could be.

[miraculess]

I'll just destroy it again... there's no point.

[ofobedience]

Maybe it's worth it, despite what might happen in the end. I don't know. Having something even for a little while seems better than this.

[he's not the best person to ask, probably. he sighs]

Perhaps we should get out of the water...

[miraculess]

[ mumbled ]

No... no more. I'm tired...

[ofobedience]

[he knows what she meant by that, but--]

I can carry you. You won't have to do anything.

[miraculess]

[ ...no response. ]

[ofobedience]

Or I could lie here with you instead.

[in the water. morbidly. it's this or just lift her without her consent and he's still thinking it through right now]

[miraculess]

...nn. You have better things to be doing.

[ofobedience]

No I don't.

[as if to prove a point, he leans back into the water alongside her]

You're pack leader. I need you, and if you're going to keep lying here then I will too.

[miraculess]

Don't.

[ofobedience]

[stays where he is]

Why not.