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lilith ⚙ "the monster" ([personal profile] miraculess) wrote2016-08-14 01:14 pm
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"the second miracle was the time spent with you" | ASPECTS GAME

Warnings for violence, self harm, and suicide attempts and ideation.

(Also for overblown symbolism and the fact I am almost entirely winging this ;D)
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-16 01:37 am (UTC)(link)
But there could be.
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-16 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
Maybe it's worth it, despite what might happen in the end. I don't know. Having something even for a little while seems better than this.

[he's not the best person to ask, probably. he sighs]

Perhaps we should get out of the water...
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-16 02:20 am (UTC)(link)
[he knows what she meant by that, but--]

I can carry you. You won't have to do anything.
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-16 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
Or I could lie here with you instead.

[in the water. morbidly. it's this or just lift her without her consent and he's still thinking it through right now]
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-16 12:10 pm (UTC)(link)
No I don't.

[as if to prove a point, he leans back into the water alongside her]

You're pack leader. I need you, and if you're going to keep lying here then I will too.
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-16 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[stays where he is]

Why not.
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-18 06:17 pm (UTC)(link)
You are to me. And to everyone else on Larkspur.
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-19 11:30 am (UTC)(link)
That's not true.

[it comes out a little sharply]
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-19 09:51 pm (UTC)(link)
[he's silent a moment as he thinks about this]

You. Victor. Caster. Fabian...Estinien?

[he shakes his head]

But that's not the point. Perhaps I don't remember everyone, but I barely spoke to anyone then. I was...scared of everything. But I remember you. Surely what matters is I remember you. You're not just anyone.
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-21 11:15 am (UTC)(link)
[he turns towards her then, face splitting on a bitter uneven smile that's either unlike him or more like him, one or the other]

That might be true of some people. Perhaps I'll forget some of them, and there's something sad about that, but you don't forget someone who made you feel like you belong somewhere, like you were wanted, when all you've ever known is rejection.
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-21 09:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[the expression melts away, abject concern sliding in to take it's place]

What for?
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[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-23 08:32 pm (UTC)(link)
[well, shit. that wasn't his intention at all. he rolls onto his side in the water, moves to touch her, but slowly in case she lashes out or prefers he stays away]

Lilith...
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SEE WHAT?? THERE WAS NOTHING TO SEE

[personal profile] ofobedience 2016-08-24 10:59 am (UTC)(link)
[her pitiful tears open up a raw ugly wound in him and if she's not going to pull back he'll reach over and hold her bodily, press her against his chest. this isn't what he wanted to achieve. not at all]

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