"the second miracle was the time spent with you" | ASPECTS GAME

[miraculess]

Warnings for violence, self harm, and suicide attempts and ideation.

(Also for overblown symbolism and the fact I am almost entirely winging this ;D)

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[miraculess]

[ ...the coughing turns to harsh, wheezing laughter, utterly devoid of any real amusement.

at least the telepathy doesn't seem to be a problem... ]

...didn't work...

[decomposed]

[ ]

Lilith?

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[ coughs again, once, and turns her head just enough to glance dully at him out of one eye ]

[decomposed]

[ wwwades in to get to her ]

What didn't work?

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[ she makes a vague attempt to roll away from him to faceplant back into the water when he gets close enough, but aside from that there's about as much fight in her as a wet dishtowel ]

Drowning...

[decomposed]

[ ... ]

Were you attempting to kill yourself?

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[ mumbling, shutting her eyes ]

You have to live to be able to die.

[decomposed]

That is no answer.

[miraculess]

[ no response... she doesn't seem very coherent, possibly due to the whole. you know. drowning thing.

he is close enough to see (sense? thanks Uriel) that most of her visible stitches have been ripped out, leaving the seams to sluggishly ooze dark blood ]

[decomposed]

[ reaches out to place a hand on her shoulder ]

Let's go ashore.

[miraculess]

There's no point.

[decomposed]

Neither is there any point to remaining here.

[miraculess]

[ makes a vague noise of acknowledgement but. doesn't actually. move. ]

[decomposed]

Lilith. What is the matter with you?

[miraculess]

What isn't the matter with me?

[ it's bleak, without any of the defensive bite she might normally have ]

...I'm tired.

[decomposed]

[ ... he kneels to sit beside her in the water, faintly squeezing her shoulder ]

Even so, this is not the answer.

[miraculess]

I've tried everything else.

[decomposed]

What have you tried?

[ not with a tone of dismissal but a sincere inquiry ]

[miraculess]

Being with people. Avoiding them. Fighting them. Letting them do what they want to me.

None of it works.

[decomposed]

And what was the result you hoped to achieve?

[miraculess]

Anything that didn't hurt...

[decomposed]

... I see. But death as well will not spare you from pain.

[miraculess]

It was supposed to... I couldn't even manage that.

[decomposed]

It is for the best that you...

[ well but she is dead. ]

... come to shore with me. The twilight is beautiful in this moment.

[miraculess]

[ ...

eventually, almost regretfully, she shakes her head ]