"the second miracle was the time spent with you" | ASPECTS GAME

[miraculess]

Warnings for violence, self harm, and suicide attempts and ideation.

(Also for overblown symbolism and the fact I am almost entirely winging this ;D)

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[ Well, that's vaguely alarming. Saber gets on his hands and knees and ducks his head to look around under the dock. ]

Is anyone there?

[miraculess]

[ there is a sodden-looking lump of a person under there, still coughing and gasping for air ]

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Shit, uh—

[ Saber holds out his hand. ]

Grab my hand!

[miraculess]

[ the coughing turns into harsh, wheezing laughter, utterly devoid of any amusement ]

'm fine—

[ the water's shallow enough not to present a problem under there. ]

[autorejoin]

Then what are you doing, exactly?

[miraculess]

Not drowning.

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I got that when you said you were fine.

[ He jumps down into the water. ]

[miraculess]

[ glances over, thoroughly dead-eyed ]

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So, what are you doing over here, anyway?

[miraculess]

I told you.

[ it's mumbled ]

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What, were you trying to drown?

[miraculess]

[ s i g h s and flops facefirst into the sand ]

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I think you'd have to go deeper. It's harder to drown in shallow water. Not impossible! But... much, much harder.

[miraculess]

I was under for more than a day. I can't at all.

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That's definitely a problem if you're trying to kill yourself.

[miraculess]

I had no idea.

[ it sounds a little like she'd like to be grumpier but is way too worn out for it ]

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Can I ask why you're trying to? No pressure, just curious mostly.

[miraculess]

I shouldn't have lived in the first place.

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Because you're some kind of Frankenstein's monster girl?

[ Katou shrugs smoothly. ]

I don't think it's about "should" or "should not," though. Whether by freak chance or greater design, you exist. Trying to unmake yourself doesn't negate that fact.

[miraculess]

No. But it'll make it stop hurting.

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I have a thought on that, but before I shove my feet entirely into my mouth, question! Is that the physical or metaphorical type of pain?

[miraculess]

Both.

...it's still too late.

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Because we're all already dead now? Dead and even that wasn't an escape?

[miraculess]

[ mumbled ]

...don't need to rub it in...