"the second miracle was the time spent with you" | ASPECTS GAME

[miraculess]

Warnings for violence, self harm, and suicide attempts and ideation.

(Also for overblown symbolism and the fact I am almost entirely winging this ;D)

Comments

[decomposed]

Hm. Then, if you are opposed, would you write another for me instead?

[miraculess]

?? why? not good

[decomposed]

I would like to watch your process. You seem to be putting a great deal of practice into this.

[miraculess]

[ frustration!! ]

shouldn't have to

BAD hands!

[ ...the latter distinctly more like someone scolding a misbehaving animal than talking about their own talents ]

[decomposed]

[ reaches for her hands ]

[miraculess]

[ ...lets him? ]

[decomposed]

[ tests their range of movement, etc, but I mean. they're. flesh human hands so. that's not really the issue, obviously, as he figures out ]

What does this feel like?

[miraculess]

[ her wrists have a slightly too-wide range of motion but aside from that, yes. she does have several (slightly ink-stained) bandages on them, on closer inspection, but no more than any other clumsy child.

the question gets blank incomprehension and a wrinkled nose ]

[decomposed]

...

Does it feel like anything?

[miraculess]

no? ?? bad hands (bad everything).

[ hey uriel remember that weird disembodied feeling from that one memory she shared ]

[decomposed]

[ yep ]

So you move them by sight?

[miraculess]

[ ...biting her lip and nodding, starting to slip from confusion into unhappiness. she's not stupid, she knows she's different, but—

...she doesn't like to think about it, that's all. ]

[decomposed]

[ he's still holding her hands ]

If I were able to improve your sense of touch, would you wish for me to do so...?

[miraculess]

[ —jerks her hands back to hold them to her chest and immediately feels bad about it, a complete mess of conflicted fear and want and completely kneejerk no no no

did you know change is terrifying ]

[decomposed]

[ LIFTS HANDS PALMS OUT ]

If you are opposed then I will not force you.

[miraculess]

but

I should? I want to be good.

[ it comes with the remembered crash of pottery breaking, the faint whine of an alarm he's heard before. good things aren't broken, don't break things, are kept and not thrown out. ]